My Life Right Now..

So I have been struggling A LOT over the last year or so, I have been relatively unemployed over this time, with only working about nine and a half hours a week to now getting another job and working nearly 50 hours a week. I had been beating myself up about not working like normal people and saving money and what have you, whereas now I am doing the opposite and trying not to rip my hair out about how much I have to do and the logistics of this!

I struggle a lot with anxiety and overthinking so having to try and navigate when I have free time to go to the gym and walk my dog is kind of tipping me over the edge. I guess the best way to deal with this is to try and look and just one week instead of looking at the entire month ahead and thinking HOLY C**P! As this makes it feel like an elephant is sitting on my chest and I start finding it hard to breath!

I really need to stand up for myself and say no and tell people what I really want. I’m still learning this and about myself so hopefully going through this will help me develop those skills and that you can’t always please everyone and that you really need to put yourself first even if doing that makes you feel icky inside and want to hide in a very dark hole for the rest of your life!

 

Wish me luck with my endeavors to deal with working life and trying not to drive myself into an anxiety and panic ridden hole!! xxx